[commitment] I'll mark commitments explicitly in this document.
[commitment] Once I say I will do something, I do it.
[commitment] And if I can't, I don't say I will.

Others can enrich my life, and I theirs.
But I also owe myself to those around me, to some extent.
If relationships are primarily draining, they still may be important
But also, always secure your mask before helping others // Don't let others get in the way of your health.

These are goal-oriented meta-structures for my self-commitments.
I want to reach the goal of projects I commit to, in some sense so I can forget about the project, but also to feel OK about myself.
Projects aren't always commitments, but when they are, they follow the same rules.
Projects are

• cultivated through the creative exploration of ideas.
• calcified and externalized in work-product.
• long-term goal-oriented action.

I pride myself on knowing things.
And I still know so little!

Focusing in on these two points ^^ the only immediate solution is to accept extreme ignorance in myself.
This is anyways touted in various forms as a path to wisdom.

[task] (Daily) School myself.

Fun, enjoyment, is a cornerstone.
It can, by itself, give great value to my life!
If I can align "fun" with "goal-orented activity" that's great, but sometimes I'll need to make trades.
[task] (Daily) Have some fun.

I feel deep character defects.
These primarily relate to my interaction with others.
Also, my productivity, life-situation, & understanding of myself have been highly variable in the past 10 years. I would prefer to stabilize.

This CG is embodiment of my desire to design myself, my life, to exert agency.
Agency requires self-consciousness, an understanding of the constitution of the self.
What this statement typically obscures is that the constitution of the self is also malleable to our will.

[commitment] (Constant) Document all ideas for tasks as I think of them. File these and delegate a future version of myself to consider that task again.
[commitment] (Constant) Keep track of task completion.
[commitment] (Weekly) Revise the CG
[commitment] (Weekly) Written reflection on:

1. others in my life,
2. the design of my life,
3. my projects,
4. my character,
   on Saturday or Sunday.

[commitment] (Daily) Read back the CG and your last written reflection.

What rooms do I want to be in?
What do I want to be able to contribute?
And how do I get there, and why?

Ever-improving, focusing each week on besting myself, independent of my understanding of others' progress.
Bettering at dealing with the situation at hand, not necessarily setting PRs.
No deadline-panic. Always be prepared.

A central commitment in the next 6 months is the completion of my dissertation.
Ideally I would make a serious step forward by the end of 2021, 5 weeks from this writing.
Broadly speaking, this involves the following:

• Deep theoretical reading, documentation, and recall.
  • Weekly, or even daily, commitment to each.
  • Reflection on efficacy of learning, in relation to the goals this lit is embedded in.
• Brainstorming analytical questions, inspired by and in conversation with extant research
  • Weekly commitment, collecting new ideas
  • Exciting, exploratory
• Conducting interviews and summarizing / consolidating them.
  • Scheduling
  • Conducting
  • Writing up reflections
  • Analytical consolidation
• Conducting analyses and writing them up.
  • Systematic
  • Only as I judge necessary
• Packaging analyses into papers.
  • Limited to just those most beautiful and impactful findings
  • Work over and over on a paper for at least a month before submission

This project can matriculate on any timeline, but the sooner the better.
The goal is to get to profitability, utility, and stability (most central) as quickly as possible.

I have long wished for this science map, and I'm using these projects to build some of the tools and knowledge necessary.
These projects together won't build the map, which is a critique of these projects. If it's just skill-building, it should be more focused towards the actual building of the map.

• Collaboration with Ying Ding
• Bloom + Neo4j + CYPHER learning, and teaching
• Analysis of coocurrences over time

I proposed the use of skin conductance sensors in sociology.
The theoretical link runs deep, in emotional energy and empathy research.
And after a huge amount of time invested, you have the sensors to collect the data you need.

• Iterating on the interface you've built // this code-base is annoying and extensive, so additions should happen in larger bursts (2-3 days).
• Collecting skin-conductance data from some interactions or experiences.
  • You can do this anytime
  • If you slowly build a library, you'll have some interpretive fodder for when you pursue this project in earnest.
• Iterating on the systematic analysis of these SCR trends. Again, this should be done in a 2-3 day burst.

I have to set time out for myself to consume new literature, to expand my knowledge.
This isn't enough, though. Careful notes need be taken, and a commitment to review them in the future.

• Stuff I used to know
• Stuff I know nothing about
• Stuff I know I need

The original motivation was to become familiar with language-processing techniques.
Lately it feels more that I am a technical lynch-pin for the project.
It's uncertain if this will ever matriculate into papers (unless I write them myself, which I'm not keen on).
And the context is uninteresting to me.
Positive points:

• interact with David
• get better at building usable tools for analysis

Originally was interested in this, in building the simulation platform.
But I did this rather poorly (inefficient / possibly erroneous) and did much better using another's.
Finally, wrote a concise paper which may get published, so it did matriculate rather well.

Further interests:

• Differences in using temporal vs static contact networks
• More sophisticated targeting strategies

To work more on this, I would have to dive deep again. But it's fresh-ish, so possible.

• Brainstorming
• Consolidating brainstorming into project proposals
• Can be structured in 3-week cycles, similar to the Swedbergian theorizing exercises

A daily routine fits squarely into 2.6 CHARACTER, on consistency.
This would imply I work every day.
This makes balancing easier. If I balance every day, then I balance every week, month, and year.

• no flexibility to accomodate others' schedules, or the schedules of events.
  But, if I have no flexibility, others will know I will have no flexibility, yielding consistency socially.
  So what, I just require them to fit within that structure?
• no flexibility to accomodate shifting physical / mental well-being
  again, rigidity in structure will induce stability in physical & mental well-being
• secondary critique to above: I can be flexible within the day, balance various needs, & still have routine

• stability [but only purportedly]
• can be evaluated for efficacy. experiments can be performed.
• full control over how I use my time //

(upon reflection, I have a certain improper view of routine as regimented, strict, exacting)

(Suggested by Pat)
45% Personal
45% Professional
10% For Others

Plan day from wake until sleep, at the start of the week.

Saturday

• Organize notes
• Fun event or sight

Sunday

• Laundry
• Reflection & CG review